by Gateway Church

Could I make changes, live a more organized life, waste less energy, and live by a stricter budget? Yes, I could do all those things, and probably should, but let me be dangerously honest. It’s going to sound shallow and rude, and it’s going to sound like the kind of thing that really shouldn’t be said, but I’m going to say it anyway. Yes, I could sacrifice and give more, but here’s my honest confession…I don’t want to. Maybe that’s selfishness. I don’t know, but I can’t deny it. I have desires. I have dreams. I have things I want to accomplish and experience. Yes, I could sneak through this conversation by sharing my very real desire to make a difference in the lives of others because I do want to make a difference in the lives of others, but I get it. This isn’t just about adding a little volunteerism to my life. This is all out. This is living my life for God and people. Maybe I should do that. It sounds good and noble, but in my heart is a list of what I want out of this life, and it’s not just about God and others. There’s a great deal on that list that has to do with me.